Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. 2 Timothy 2:15
My God, please help me… I had no idea of the rigor, determination, and work required of me to study theology. I have three eight week classes this summer. While, I have scored well on the writing assignments, I took three multiple choice/true false quizzes… on those quizzes, I have not scored like that, since I was an undergraduate in analytical chemistry and theoretical physics!!! While those undergraduate classes were a struggle, You allowed me to master them and my education and do very well academically… but in the beginning it was tuff… But I had the desire to better myself, and education was my hope of a better life. So I hung in there by Your grace. Now, I am not sure why or what this journey is for… Oh, my God…please help me Jesus.
God, I believe that you sent me on this mission. Please help me to be successful. Please help me to push past my human emotions of wanting to quit, feeling humiliated, like a failure, why bother… and all the negative reactions that go with not succeeding academically, when I am used to being very successful in school. Though I do not see your plan for me in this… please help me to trust that the steps I take, are where you have chosen to place my feet. While I do not see the purpose of this journey, please help me to treat it with the same respect that I gave to all the academic degrees I earned before. The ones, I so desperately wanted, because they were the key to improving my financial situation and thus quality of life.